Love Can Wait.


When I'm laying in my bed, gazing upon my flowers of the week, I write a lot. 

In my journal 

..or on my phone 

And it's just for me ..

Pages filled with thoughts that I don't want to annoy my friends with ...plus, I really believe that seeking advice from within is helping me to become more self-sufficient.

It's often my feelings about love... Or the lack thereof ..I get very lonely and instead of seeking loved ones, I isolate myself ..and write even more. 

However, I've grown tiresome of my own pensiveness and unanswered questions about if I will ever fall in love. I want to enhance my faith in God's promise and let love develop naturally in my life. 

I want to switch my habitual vents about my have nots and start dwelling on things that will allow my thoughts to be more positive ..on a much more consistent basis. 

I am my very thoughts. All of my power and abilities come from the way I think. 

The only way to change my thoughts is to refocus my reflections. In order to do this, I am going to have to incorporate new words into my daily meditation. 

New Focus Words:
Future 
Bliss
Motivation 
Beauty
Traveling 
Laughter 
Success
Light
Growth
Leadership 
Learning 
Forgiveness
Contentment
Gratefulness
Strength
Wisdom 

Love is not listed ...because honestly, right now, love is my mental dissolution. It's all I think about. I don't have it the way my heart desires it ..and that makes me lonely and depressed. This is just the truth. 

No more, will I fixate on what I do not have. I will no longer centralize my thoughts around the concept of love or even the word itself. I know it will still come to me, whether I give it my energy or not ..but for the sake of my own happiness and sanity, I must rivet my attention elsewhere. 

I have been brought too far to let my heart be troubled. I must have faith in the things that I can not yet see. 

Self-sufficiently, 
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