Love Can Wait.
When I'm laying in my bed, gazing upon my flowers of the week, I write a lot.
In my journal
..or on my phone
And it's just for me ..
Pages filled with thoughts that I don't want to annoy my friends with ...plus, I really believe that seeking advice from within is helping me to become more self-sufficient.
It's often my feelings about love... Or the lack thereof ..I get very lonely and instead of seeking loved ones, I isolate myself ..and write even more.
However, I've grown tiresome of my own pensiveness and unanswered questions about if I will ever fall in love. I want to enhance my faith in God's promise and let love develop naturally in my life.
I want to switch my habitual vents about my have nots and start dwelling on things that will allow my thoughts to be more positive ..on a much more consistent basis.
I am my very thoughts. All of my power and abilities come from the way I think.
The only way to change my thoughts is to refocus my reflections. In order to do this, I am going to have to incorporate new words into my daily meditation.
New Focus Words:
Love is not listed ...because honestly, right now, love is my mental dissolution. It's all I think about. I don't have it the way my heart desires it ..and that makes me lonely and depressed. This is just the truth.
No more, will I fixate on what I do not have. I will no longer centralize my thoughts around the concept of love or even the word itself. I know it will still come to me, whether I give it my energy or not ..but for the sake of my own happiness and sanity, I must rivet my attention elsewhere.
I have been brought too far to let my heart be troubled. I must have faith in the things that I can not yet see.