Efflorescent Memoirs

"I do nothing and yet nothing is left undone." Lao Tzu December 13th, 2015
9:40 PM  Now Playing: Electric Relaxation - Tribe Called Quest 
Last night, after leaving La Maison d'Art, I sat on a bench in front of the park on St. Nic and 135th for a few hours, straight chillin, without a care in the world. Can you imagine? All dressed up in my black pumps and ruby woo. By myself. A Saturday night. Under the new moon in NYC. Today, I kept the party going - not blogging, not finishing lesson plans, not grading papers. I didn't do a got-damned thing! It was lovely! I am mastering the art of doing nothing. 
Before I could begin to do this, I had to understand the difference between being lazy and doing nothing. 
Lazy is:  -Having an idea but lacking the motivation to attain it - most often because of the overwhelming amount of effort it will take to complete  -Not the same thing as tired; yes one may lack energy, but it's different from being tired, in the sense that being tire…

So he had been on trial for a month. He was arrested over a year ago. And we are just hearing about this? 
13 sistas were assaulted by him, in secret. The youngest, a 17-year-old, whose DNA was found on his pants after he forced her to give him head on her mother's porch, said she never told authorities because, "What kind of police do you call on the police?" 
Is there a greater word for vile? If so, rename Daniel Holtzclaw after it. He is the epitome of why we don't have trust in cops now! He was strategic. He would only sexually assault black women with criminal records. He chose victims that have already been silenced by society. And the fact that it didn't make national news proves his theory to be correct. 
Are we not supposed to care that the prosecutors tried to justify his crimes by attacking the character of each woman individually. Media, are you saying that Black women being raped by white cops is not as egregious as Black men being murdered by white cop…

he was no poem more like a caption he was space on my timeline

I am grateful for completing 100 days of writing gratitude list with my best friends.
I am grateful for this journey toward EMOTIONAL STABILITY.
I am grateful for therapy last night. I felt my happiness and how much I have overcome since the last time I spoke to her. November was a month of hard growth but beautiful acceptance.
I am grateful for having a therapist that is always unbiased, even when it hurts  I am grateful that the hurt always pushes me to evaluate myself and become a better woman
I am grateful for learning that I do not have to be controlled by my feelings and I do not have to act on my emotions. I can acknowledge them and let them go. 
I am grateful for ALL of the life lessons in womanhood that I have learned through my friends, mentors, and life itself. My mother didn't teach me the things she should have but Source never left me in the dark, ignorant, and naive, without sending me amazing teachers.
I am grateful for not needing validation from anyone about any…

While I was in Cuba, one of my students in Baltimore was killed by a 13 year old. There was no march for that. I can name many other students that have been murdered under the age of 18. No protest for them either. I'm withdrawn tonight, after reading about the Laquan McDonald rallies ... Honestly, it's the same old bullsh't. The violence in our communities only gets national attention when it's police brutality. I hate when people stand on their soap boxes and say that, but it's true. When will we fight the real problem? How will we even begin to undo what has purposefully been done to keep us exactly where they want us to be - dead, broke, or in their private prisons! Who is giving us these guns? Why don't we riot about n'ggas killing n'ggas? Jesse Jackson is out in the Chi, front and center, listening to the mayor give speeches, why isn't he in the projects teaching people that us killing each other is exactly what they want us to do. Probably be…