Silent Nights

silent nights 

no one can hear my cries but 

these tulips 

they breathe with 

me

i know they can't answer but they 

hear me 

just wanna be heard 

don't need them to pity me 

don't want them to tell me things will be ok

just want them to be still 

no judgements because I'm still crying over the same thing i cried over last night and the night before and the night before that 

they hear my weak eyes grow and swell with forceful tears 

echoes of my screams vibrate off their petals 

they look at me but they don't blink they don't flinch they 

just breathe