NP: Sade - Tattoo
I left my journal in school. I thought about starting a new one because I really didn't want to type anything tonight. I prefer to use pen and paper when I just have these kinds of random but not so random thoughts. Maybe that's why I don't mind being alone. I never feel alone. I always feel like someone is watching or listening.
I'm so different than I was before.
Before being clinically diagnosed.
So much clarity.
Labels are soothing. Long as you inform yourself on them. Don't rely on someone else's know-how when it comes to your health.
Before learning about my depression I used to fight my feelings so much. Running from them. Never analyzing them and finding out what they meant. That was too scary. Just like being alone was scary too. Things have changed. My progress is the sheer result of being vulnerable enough to get the help I needed.
Another thing I have had to admit to myself is that I am addicted to meditating. It's really my medication. I told my therapist and she said that's the most healthiest thing I could do for myself. How about that?
I am on the right track.