NOLA No. 1 and 3

New Orleans, LA
NP: Rihanna - Love on the Brain
7:14 PM 

I was here for seven days during the last week of 2015. Left the morning of Jan 1st. I didn't post anything that week. I needed to quiet the world. I was depressed but I didn't really know it until I got here today and started noticing so many wild and vivid colors that I didn't see last time. Be and I drove down the same roads that we did everyday last time and the teals and purples and pinks were like fireworks. They were blindingly beautiful. How had I not seen them last time?

When you're in the dark.... 


I don't want to be picked and put into a vase. I want to be free.
Let me be free. 


I don't drink but sometimes I wish I had a vice that I could turn to. That's just the truth. But the reality is: no substance works for me. They only make the pain more intense. And the happiness cease to exist, even if I was happy prior to ... 





Lots of people love me. But you know sometimes I still wonder who will love me and my ways that I find hard to control but still try my hardest. Who will it be?


Will it be?


"I don't blame you much for wanting to be free. I just wanted you to know." Nina 


"I won't always be crying tears in the middle of the night. I won't always have to think about what I'm going to do. Because he's gonna be there for me. Oh yes he will. I won't always be feeing so blue."


Tell my baby I'm back in town.


When no one ain't around I think I think too much. 

I just fade away.