of a young bird
there's this theory
when the seasons change
our internal moods shift as well.
felt myself..
like watching waves crawl back into the ocean
under a dark mooned night..
like the lone white feather that trails in the shadows floating below summer blue leaves
felt it coming to a slow burn like the tip
of my black
crushing against my gold asher
crashing.
but
it doesn't hurt
doesn't even tingle
my steps were inches apart
to go home to an empty place
to be home in a desolate space
movement along the streets became such a struggle
i hailed a car
justified because the A train was the last place I needed to be under these conditions
underground
too dark under
too low
but
avoiding it
is as impossible
as not avoiding it
still low in this window
this one candle lit room
living space for one
sounds like a phone off its hook
no one to hang it back up
no silence in this cave but
it's without a voice
without an answer
aching
empty veins
heart beat moans
songs of Billie or Nina
to escape the mad walking dream
mirrors awaken the memory
i can usually beat this tar of an emotion
except in fall
there's this truth
between night and dawn
causes the sky to be tear drop blue
the air moist enough to grow arms
and fingers that wind my thoughts
in the dew of words:
this is a season with self in leadership
you are not down you are different.
not the same
vision.
decisions.
Source said:
keep your joy.
my joy.
don't let the insecure embarrass you
don't let lost laughs fret you
silence is not staring at you
it's affirming you
you're not wrong for your feelings
allow them
let them in
let them out
like the morning breaths of a young bird
like the morning cries of young bird
be unapologetically you
me
unmask
you cannot make other people comfortable.
not anymore.
it's a new season.
i rose with those words of dew from the low to a new
a day white of intentions
pure of afflictions
morning
This poem spoke to me on so many levels. I have been in such a strange mood that I have not been able to explain and this poem makes me feel like I don't need to explain it...thank you.
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