Midnight. Via IG 3.6.17
would never know how much i cry ... how dark my depression is... how loud the voices get... will never know
i will not harm myself.
i will overcome every battle with my mood swings every time me and the other side of me meet in the ring.
i will love myself a little more for every morning that i can wake up from dreaming of ending it all the night before.
i will love myself even more for pushing through my past and my regrets
and my fears my anxiety
and self doubt.
I know now, more than yesterday that
I am enough.
I am more than enough.
I will always love my enoughness.
I will always love myself more for getting help when I can't manage alone.
I will always love myself for ignoring how embarrassing it is to let others see me so low,
so weak, yet, so strong.
I flaunt my transparency.
I acknowledge my bravery.
I stand firm in my will to free every woman that stands beside me as I free the little girl inside me.
I will always find beauty deep down beneath the ugly demons.
I will kill the pain they inflict by writing, painting, sleeping, laughing, traveling, and sitting ... Sometimes I just need to sit still and think and over think and over over think.
I will love myself more for facing my pain not running from it.
I will always love. myself. more.