10:39PM Good Now
“To live fully alive is to feel every part of your experience.” —Dah Last week, I was showing a prevalent sign of depression: ruminating. Triggered at work but I saved my meltdowns for when I got home. It sounds like I had it controlled but not at all! I kept replaying the hurtful situation over and over in my head. The more I thought about it, the more I screamed and cried. I lost sleep and when I did, I had awful visions in my dreams. Visions that made me not even want to sleep. I somehow managed to still go to work during the day but came home and continued to feel worse and worse. But I’m good now. How? Well, it’s not as simple as the following list may seem but after the first 6 days of depressing darkness, I did these things to finally find my light. I confronted those that hurt me via a letter — even though I didn’t give it to them at first, it helped to get things off my chest. I confronted those that hurt me (this was actually not planned) came to me and